Showing posts from April, 2019

Autistic At A Wedding

I went to a wedding on Tuesday. My friend Graham got married and me, the wife and the kids were all invited to the night do but I ended up going on my own because Sarah's tired from working night shifts as well as various other things she had going on, and the kids were at nursery that day. Even if they weren't I didn't fancy contending with 2 tired toddlers on my own while surrounded by almost nobody but strangers.
If I'm honest, I didn't really want to go, but I went because I felt like I should. I didn't want to go for a few different reasons. The last time I saw Graham was about a year ago and when I haven't seen people in a while I always struggle talking to them. Including Graham there were a grand total of 3 people there who I knew, and even then I don't know the other 2 that well. It was in a place I was unfamiliar with and a fairly long drive away from the comforts of home and family, and regardless of who I knew I don't tend to do well wh…


Sexual preference and gender identity are subjects that are often linked with neurodiversity. But this blog post isn't about my sexual orientation or how I identify, rather it's about my experience as a young, unknowing autistic struggling to create romantic and/or sexual relationships, and the effect that those struggles have had on me. By the way, just in case you're wondering, my orientation and identity are straight and cis (he/him pronouns).I've been with our Sarah for 8 years now, and happily married for almost 7 of them but when I was single my relationships and dates with women were VERY few and far between - to the point that I still to this day consider it a minor miracle that I managed to attract Sarah at all. I mentioned in last week's post that I'd never had a girlfriend till I was 20 and didn't lose my virginity until I was 22. I think this combined with my always strong desire to meet somebody and settle down, yet inability to do so, damaged …

The Effects Of Late Diagnosis

Here it is at last! I've been promising/planning this post for a few weeks now but life stuff just got in the way every time. But it's finally here, and it's time to discuss the effects of late diagnosis - at least in my own personal experience. Obviously there are lots of things that could and would turn out different depending on when you're diagnosed autistic. I personally had no idea that I might be autistic until around my mid-20's, and even then it was still several years until I was diagnosed at the age of 31.

For me personally, one of the things that I think would have been different had I been diagnosed during childhood is my confidence level. My confidence (or lack thereof) has been commented on many, many times in my life, whether it's been during job interviews, dating, and even my first autism referral mis-diagnosed me with just a lack of confidence. While I'm not denying that my confidence is and always has been practically non-existent, it wa…

The Walk

So I finally did it! It wasn't when I wanted to do it, or how I wanted to do it, but I did it nonetheless. It took 3 hours and 6 minutes, but I walked 10 miles for the National Autistic Society this morning and now my legs - especially my right hip - are in agony.

Because I couldn't do it on Sunday when I planned to do it, and because it was gonna be difficult planning it around everything else we've got going on, I managed to borrow a treadmill from a neighbour in my village and walked the full 10 miles (16.1km) in my own sitting room while watching Monday Night Raw from last night. The kids were at nursery and the wife was at work so it was the ideal time to do it in my own space and in my own time. So that's my charity commitment fulfilled, and I got caught up on all the weekend's wresting while I was at it - win, win!

I didn't raise absolutely loads on my Just Giving page, but I at least raised something which can only be better than nothing. It was £40 plu…

Update On The Walk

Sorry first of all for not posting last week. We'd been to Butlin's for the week and came back on Friday so I didn't have time to post anything as we were travelling back, sorting everything out when we got home, and I was knackered by the end of it.

I think for this week's post I need to give an update on the 10 mile walk I was planning on Sunday. To be honest I've had a hellacious few days this week with stress, anxiety, illness and a whole host of other things going on externally, which have all just come crashing down on us as a family all at once. Needless to say my World Autism Awareness Week hasn't gone anywhere near as well as I'd planned! I'm back at work today after taking Wednesday and Thursday off, but I'm still not 100%. In terms of mental health I feel a lot better now than I did a few days ago, thanks to isolating myself in a dark room as much as possible with just my cat for company. As far as my physical illness goes (and without go…